wondergirls

Life.

2011-08-02T19:31:00.002+08:00

Been so long since i posted. haha.
N indeed lots have changed.
Left like 98 days to A's!

Hmm. Today wasnt the best day.
But yet, I am thankful for friends tt have come into my life to stay.
Though they may not be many, but truth is we dont need so many.
Feel so blessed just having them in my life.

May not be the best of choice, but at tis moment i feel relieved.

Your kingdom.

2011-06-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

Feels like there is so much more tt we can do, tt i can do.
Just tt i dont really know how.
Teach me O lord to go all out for you. Bless your people s they do your works O lord.
Because if the Lord doesnt build the house, the workers work in vain.

This life is yours.

What am I waiting for?

2011-05-08T22:59:00.003+08:00

So what is it that you want?
What is it that you believe in?
What is it that you stand for?

Getting drowned in inadequacy means nth, does nth.

If you know, if you truly are repentant, if it truly matters to you,
then stand up again. Make ur words mean smth.

For his grace is enough.
Question is, How truly repentant r you?
How truly repentant am I?

Guide.

2011-04-22T16:24:00.002+08:00

So many choices. I guess theres a million things we can choose to do with our lives.
Hmm. quite perplexed over some things .
Tts y i guess sometimes we often want to reset our lives. haha.

Who understands me more than I understand myself.
I am thankful tt You do.

Even in the most confused situations, we can take comfort tt You know us best.
And more than tt, You trust us.

The life i have because of Your son.

2011-04-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

If my heart is overwhelmed and i cannot hear your voice,
I'd hold on to what is true though i cannot see.
If the storms of life they come and the road ahead get steep,
I will raise these hands in faith, i will believe.
I remind myself of all that you've done.
And the life I have because of your son.

Love came down and rescue me.
Love came down and set me free.
I am Yours, i am forever yours.
Mountain high or valley low,
I sing out, remind my soul.
I am Yours, I am forever Yours.

By our own strength, we cant.
By my own strength I cant.
But with You, all is possible.
Even though sometimes I cant see the end, I trust.

Even though with God all is possible.
We got to do our part.
To try.

Faith without actions is dead.

wake up.

2011-04-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hey, i said it, gonna do it. Made for so much more.

Only one thing is needed.

2011-03-26T11:08:00.002+08:00

The one thing tt pleases God the most is us coming to know him more and more and in turn, loving him more and more and becoming more like him.
He cares so much more bout our being than our doing.

The one thing tt sets a fire in me is to build myself up to who he called me to be and his church up from glory to glory such tt on the day when Jesus comes back, we can present the church holy n blameless, without blemish.

I'm running this race for You but most importantly, I'm running this race with You.

Jesus, You.

2011-03-13T01:20:00.002+08:00

Relationships are blessed in our lives.
When u start to find security n happiness in the wrong places, you will just find urself being even more insecure.
The truth is sometimes the things tt we want in our lives, the things tt we tink we need in order to be happy, isnt actually the things tt will truly satisfy us.

Because the one and true answer is found in Him.
Something tt i need to be reminded of as well because its so easy to choose the other way at times, which ends up to nowhere.

Because the only recognition, the only understanding, the only trust, the only love i truly need comes from You.
Despite my feelings, I wanna do what pleases You.

"He himself was forsaken so that none of his children will need to utter his cry of loneliness."

Got to head back home.

2011-03-11T22:47:00.002+08:00

Hmm. me.. the person tt i m .
I think recently, i kinda lost who i am .
Because of lack of time, tired of struggling and laziness.

Before I came to know God, i was a completely different person.
The things I do, believe in were all different.
Yet, at that point of time, I know I needed something just didnt know what exactly i was looking for.
After I came to know God, I began to slowly realise exactly who I was created to be.
N as time goes by n i know him more and grew in him more, I started realising the characteristics God has placed in me. Things I believe so strongly in, stand up for, my weaknesses, my strengths.
Seeing the changes in me, I cant help but to thank him n stand in awe of him.

However, growth is never easy, hasnt been and will never be.
But wads guaranteed is its definitely worth it to go through all these struggles, because through them, we will grow, we will learn and in turn become more n more like Jesus, who he created us to be. Because as i grow to be who i was created to be day by day, I find joy in him.

Never forgetting why I choose to run this race. Never forgetting the things tt u have done for me. Because the last ting i wanna be is to be apathetic to not growing and be okay with current situations.

You never fail.

2011-02-12T00:34:00.002+08:00

N God, you amazed me heaps honestly.
As much as we want to bring the lost back home,
God's heart beats for them so much more.
Not my will be done.
But Yours.
I'm ultimately just a vessel, You are the ultimate builder.

First priority .

2011-02-09T20:45:00.002+08:00

So easily distracted.
But its true.
Not gonna risk falling into it.
Because You should be the first place in my life.
N to trust in your plans.
Tt you have one in store for me.

Never letting go.

2011-02-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

Just as I have picked the title, to carry your compassion.
I am never letting go.
Made for so much more.

A period in my life.

2011-01-31T21:08:00.003+08:00

Tdy is a really special day because its ...................................

my dear Hip bday!
haha. N here is a photo of my beloved lifegroup. One tt i really cherish a lot.
Loveyou Hip. Have known you for a year now and I've learnt so much from our relationship.
Thank God for bringing you into the lifegroup, thank God for blessing you in my life.
Really want to grow with you in God so much more and serve God tgt with you.
Loveyou dear.

Preparing for Hip's bday was like an amazing race. I, jiayee and David rushed like mad! haha.
But it was worth it.

Last sat after svc, went to SMU to just chill with the SRLG.
It was really fun. We were doing our fave ting, playing guitar and singing random songs in smu. haha. MEOWS. lol!

This is a family of God tt i want to invest in and I want to love so much more.
To grow tgt with them and know them so much more.
Because each and everyone of you matters so much to God.
N in each and everyone of you, I see how uniquely and beautifully God created you guys.

Even though its not easy, I will not give up.
Because I remembered why I choose to start this race and why I love You so much.
Jiayous! I will perservere on.

Its time?

2011-01-26T21:41:00.003+08:00

When I do not see how I can actually step back up?
When I do not know how to restart again.
The load is on me but yet I'm not ready to carry it now.
Know how bad I feel because of the fact tt I cannot fulfill tt responsibility in a way.

Tons of things I can do so much better in.
Maybe this is really the way I am created.
Full of thoughts, thoughts tt hinder me a lot. Of coz there are thoughts tt are useful n beneficial.
But yet, more than often, it is not this way.

Hope. Of coz i see hope. But yet at this point of time I just do not see myself breaking through .
Way too long.
N i feel way too helpless.
Tt disappointment i brought to ppl n myself n of coz him.

The things tt made up me. I do not see how I am any of those alrdy.
Living it out is nt easy.
N maybe I just cmi.

Got to breakthrough.

2011-01-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

I just want to scream.......

Maybe

2011-01-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

If one can understand.
Maybes.
Would you help me to understand?

Third day of school.

2011-01-12T20:48:00.003+08:00

Third day of school and I'm already beginning to feel the pressure.
haha. With all the teachers giving us an overview of our schedule for this year,
know tt this year is gonna be a stretching n hectic one.
Though I'm scared, I'm actually really excited for whats to come this year.

Haven exactly been the best example in school this few days.
Seriously, If i know how to say, i better deliver it.
Hold me accountable! seriously..

Yet, I'm convicted in not compromising serving God and my relationship with him this year.
Neither am I gonna do this year on my own.
Seek first his kingdom and all else will be added upon you.

Jiayous all the A level peeps!
11 more months and we will be partying...
woohoo.
(The year just started n I'm tinking about after A's. hahaha.)

My God will provide.

2011-01-09T21:20:00.003+08:00

My God will provide.
Faith in who he is and not in what I can do.

Penny for my thoughts.

2011-01-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

Times like this I have experienced countless times.
N yet, everytime i fall deep into it, I find it so hard to get up.
I think its so true, standing up may not be easy but being able to keep being up is so much more difficult.

Maybe its the way I was made.
I know what I want, I know what I should do.
But maybe its because of the countless times I have falled, I know tt by standing up and by trying, I am putting myself in a position tt i may fall again.
Is it worth it?
Is it worth to keep putting myself in such situations?
My answer is Yes. I know its worth it n i really want to have breakthroughs.
But maybe, I just need time. To prepare myself to try again.

To be reassured. To be reminded. To be convicted. To be corrected. To be comforted.
To be empowered. All in all, I know I cannot do this by myself anymore.

Thoughts.

2011-01-04T16:56:00.002+08:00

I think one thing tt really did struck me so badly tdy is tt there is no point knowing or being able to observe so many things if nothing is being changed within us.
Recently, I realised tt the more you know, the more thoughts you have, the more responsibility you have. You can notice so many rooms of improvements, you can have the want to change things for the better of the kingdom of God. But if nothing is being done upon having these thoughts, then I really think I'm better off without them.
Not knowing something, hence not doing anything is better than knowing and not doing anything.
Really felt a lot when I realised how I can know so many things yet I am unable to put it into actions. I guess the reason to why I can't seem to be able to live out in the things I believe in is because living it out is not easy. It would cost me to be uncomfortable, like super. Hence, I often fail to even try.
Perhaps tts why based on my own strength, I cannot possibly succeed. I will get burnt out.
Realised the need to depend so much more on God. Author and perfector of our faith.

Time to step out of my comfort zone. Time to not just know things but to act it out. Honestly, knowing how to live and living it out is two different things.
Jiayous!

N i ate ikea meatballs today. Happy. hahaha.

"It was like every single story that we came across seems to be a small reflection of the one story. And that one story I think its the greatest act of injustice and at the very same time, the greatest act of Love."

2 days left to 2011.

2010-12-29T00:45:00.002+08:00

Last two days of 2010.
I guess there are a lot of self-reflecting recently.
This yr has been one tt is full of changes.
Lots of ups and downs.
Learnt so much this yr and fell many times as well.
From changing lifegroups, shepherds and schools, different. haha.
Honestly, I realised so much more of myself because of all these changes.

Yet all in all, I thank God for this year.
One thing tt God spoke to me on the first day of sch about this yr was tt apart from him, I can do nothing.
And honestly, I think this verse kind of sums up this year for me in many aspects.

Why I do what I do despite everything I face and go through.
Because of your love.

Reminded.

2010-12-20T23:19:00.002+08:00

And You opened the door for me,
And you laid down your life to set me free.
All that I am will serve you Lord.
And You opened me eyes to see.
All the wonder and awe of Christ in Me.
Jesus, You're everything I need.

Love.

2010-11-22T01:26:00.003+08:00

Love not so tt u will be loved back.
Love nt so tt ppl will recognise you and thank you for it.
N dont assume.

Love is unconditional.
Love them for who they are.
I love becoz You love.
Jiayous.

1 corinthians 13

Its about time to do so.

2010-11-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

Nt exactly the best weeks of my life.
But rather, I really appreciate these times somewhere deep in my heart.
Knowing tt there is a reason for everything tt happens.
N i will grow from all these.

Have been pin-pointing ppl myself too much i realised.
Often asking ppl y u do this be it to me or to ppl. Often seeing the flaws of ppl.
Often telling them wad i tink could have been done better.
Having the mentality tt although i haven accomplished or grown out of it yet,
this doesnt give ppl the excuse to be like this.
Like I'm late for school but it doesnt mean tt they can be late for sch and just becoz im always late doesnt mean I cant tell them nt to be late for sch.

Which i came to realise tis is kind of a wrong mindset in a way.
It really depends on the effort I have put in n how much I have seeked n asked God to help me grow in an area.
I cant just sit there n pin-point myself for being like this n nt do anyting at all n expect ppl to do smth then.
If i have more effort in changing the world than changing myself, then smth is nt right.
Romans 12:3-4

My relationship with You is above everything else. It is the basis of everything I do.
Something which I kinda forgotten n placed not as my top priority.
Without You, I cant love.
Without You, I cant forgive.
Without You, I have no hope.
Becoz apart from Christ, I can do nothing.

Love. Love. Greatest of all is Love.
Hard to love when u r hurt.
Hard to love when I'm relying on my own strength, own thinking, own logic.

Hence, time to go back to the true source.
John 15: 1-8

Before I sleep.

2010-11-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

About to turn in for the night.

& I'm just so excited for the taiwan trip with my whole family and grandparents plus my cousins.
When i say whole family I meant my two brothers plus my parents.
Super excited as its been a really long while since our whole family go overseas tgt.
A short trip but I know its gonna be quality time spent.

Wanna love the ppl ard me more n more.
Becoz every single one of them matters to You and hence, to me.
Love Love.
Its coming to the end of the year!
This year really flies past so fast.
Lots to ponder about and lots to give thanks for.

Looking forward to the end of PW.
Then comes planning for Taiwan, meeting up with many ppl, reflection, camp, christmas.
woohoo.
So many things in life.
Sometimes, we just got to remind ourselves to pause and slow down.
To remember why we do wad we do.
To appreciate the ppl, situations in our lives.
To remember the source of our live. You.

I'm running.

2010-11-07T01:21:00.003+08:00

Yes, its tough.
Yes, I may falter.
But i choose to trust in You.
Situations may not exactly be the most ideal, they suck in fact.
But yet, all these happens for a reason.
N im actually beginning to embrace these situations n circumstances im in .
haha. yeap.
I may whine, I may rant but all in all, I know what is the truth.
Yes, I do struggle and its so tough so many a times.
But yet, I am reminded tt You are in control.
You will make a way out.
Everything happens for a reason.

N in all these situations, I have made up my mind to trust and follow You.
You will guide. You will lead. x)

With You.

2010-10-17T21:18:00.002+08:00

Becoz You are more interested in our being then our doing.
Im not running tis race for You. But I'm running tis race with You.
Inadequate I maybe, but Your grace is more than sufficient for me.
To love n to love with everyting tt I am.
Teach me to love just as how you have love us.

God-centred friendships.

2010-10-13T23:53:00.003+08:00

Have been sleeping at wee hours for the past few days.
Haha, thank God tt all the lectures we have in sch are redundant.
Hence, i can sleep during the lectures. haha.

Had yoghurt with qiya n karen tdy.
Impromptu but had a great time.
Been long since we three met up tgt.
I love you guys so much.
Thank God for these covenanted friendships.

You guys are people tt have been through with me thick n thin (Sounds drama but we noe.. )
haha. You guys have seen my flaws and love me still.
You guys accepted me for who I am.
You guys never fail to speak the truth into my life for the kog and for my sake.
You guys helped me through my cui-est moments and understand all my "hmms" and"I duno".
Thank you for growing n running alongside with me in this race.
Through our friendships, I have learned so much.
N i noe tt our relationships is secured in God's hands.

haha. N i noe tt u guys noe how much u all mean to me.
Thank God for u guys really.

My Joy found in You.

2010-10-09T01:41:00.003+08:00

Was really tinking through many stuff.
Many insecurities have been flooding me recently.
I really dislike it when I fail to be how I want to be like.
These expectations I place on myself they aint bad.
But one thing I have to understand is tt I am a work in progress.

The grace You have shown me for the many times I have failed you amazes me.
Never will I ever want to abuse this grace.

Circumstances change. But You never change.
N becoz of this, I can rejoice in every circumstance.
I can rejoice when I fall. I can rejoice when I'm placed in circumstances that make me uncomfortable.
Becoz I know you have never leave me, You have never once forsaken me.
N never will you leave me, never will You forsake me.
Your everlasting presence never fail to comfort me.

I am so thankful to have You in my life.

Determined.

2010-09-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

I need my 10 hours of sleep. haha.
Really tired. But no, i'm determined to not live life day by day.
God, you r the same even during exams period.
You are my strength.

Nt easy to step out of the usual n norm.
N in fact, i am a bit clueless of the steps to take.
Seeking guidance.

So grateful.

2010-09-11T00:57:00.003+08:00

Im supposed to be studying or sleeping but im not.
Gonna sleep soon!

Conviction by the spirit .
You let me understand wad it means.
Really so thankful for the people u hav blessed me with in my life.
Everyting tt i am today is becoz of your love n grace.
I still remembered how kim once told me about the relationships she have made in her ex lg.
N how they can relate n understand wad she is facing n gg through.
I tink i've found these ppl in my life too. x)

No doubt, i still have problems.
I still have my insecurities.
But I know tt i m a work in progress.
N in you, i find an everlasting hope.

Becoz u have shown me how real your love is , how faithful u r.
N i am overwhelmed with gratefulness.

All i have is yours.

2010-09-06T00:50:00.002+08:00

I guess trust really isnt an easy thing. But same goes for loving someone.
Its a choice.

I really appreciate it when people are able to understand n relate to me.
I appreciate it even more when tt person chooses to trust me tt I know wad is the right ting to do and i will do it or why i behave the way I do. When they trust my character.
The truth is its not easy to do so.
People like this are hard to find in a way.
As much as i appreciate these people and love to have them in my life, I should really aim to be like that too.
Not only to be able to relate to people and understand them but at the same time trust their character.

Yes, choosing to trust may put you in a vunerable state.
Same goes for choosing to love someone.
But then again, I still choose to love, i still choose to trust.
Simply becoz the one up there has chosen to trust me first,
God has chosen to love me first.
Despite the countless times I fail him, despite the countless times I have hurt him,
God has nv stop believing in me, he has nv stop loving me.

Feel so thankful for the amazing grace tt God has given me.

N i bought a new laptop! Super happy.
the only ting bout the laptop is tt it has only one colour.
No other colours.. But still yes. Finally liberation. I get to install games when i want to ! haha.
Love my daddy n mummy.
I should really sleep now. got sch in the morning tml!
Bye laptop. . . ~~~~

Life.

2010-08-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

Long time since i blogged. haha.
Woah. in a blink of an eye, its alrdy august.
2010 is passing by really fast.
Thank god for this week which only has two days of sch.
Oh n tdy i woke up at 7am. N i was like 0.0.
Quickly rush and was feeling heart-pain becoz i tot i needed to take taxi.
Then when i opened the door and saw the rain, i was shocked.
haha! becoz my sch has this policy tt when it rains, the reporting time will be pushed back
half hour ltr.
Really thank God. Cant afford to be late one more time if not, i have to go for EBP.

Realise smth recently tt loving someone is not easy.
In a way.
I really dislike it when sometimes im void of feelings when someone is crying in front of me.
Its not tt im not sad or concerned but maybe the extent of which I know or want to feel.
To love like how God loves us.
tt is something which i really want to grow in.
To love ppl the way God loves us.
Work in progress.

Really got to start studying really hard now.
Not gg to be easy becoz i noe im someone tt lacks discipline.
haha. jiayous cheryl!

Making decisions not easy. Sticking through them even harder.
But I know u will provide, you will deliver.

Burdens.

2010-08-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

Certain things i know of.
I really cant help but feel smth.
I want to step in n help but yet, I'm not sure whether im capable enough to help yet.
Let this burden grow n guide me in bringing them back.
Its tough, its gonna take a long while n a whole lot of effort.
But becoz of your love, I cant help to feel smth .

God, u place this burden in my heart.
N may u lead me into doing smth .
By ur spirit not by my might.
Continue to break my heart for what breaks yours.

Times like this.

2010-07-28T22:26:00.001+08:00

Cheryl, you got to take a stand.

I got to move forward.

You.

2010-07-26T20:04:00.000+08:00

Had a really great time with joelsoong, kiat n karen last Sat.
We went to this gameshop opp Pomo which i realised i do not know the name.
Haha, spent two hours playing boardgames.
It sounds boring but actually its really fun.
Its not the activity we do, but the company that matters. hoho.

There was this game called "Say anyting" which i find really meaningful n funny.
Basically we are supposed to ask a question n then the other ppl will ans.
The person tt asked the question will then choose which one is best ans.
haha. Through tt game, you really get to see how much u understand one another n
at the same time learn more about one another.
Great game to play. hahaha.

Judging from our personalities and backgrounds, its quite amazing tt we are actually close frens. The history tt i have with each n everyone of them is really funny.
N i noe tt without god, we probably wont have this relationship with one another.
But its so true. Ppl matters to god. Relationships matter to God.
N time and time again, this proves to be so true.
God is love.
N I'm truly amazed and thankful to you God.

I truly am thankful for all the people that you have placed in my life.
N becoz you love, so can I.
N becoz you love, so will I.

Karen:
Thankyou for always being there for me when I need you. When im at my wits end, you never fail to be there to give me a hand. Looking back at how our relationship grew from sec 1 to now, I'm truly amazed. Seeing how God have changed us amazed me so much more.
I loveyou so much n I'm looking forward to finishing this race with u . 8D

Soong:
Hey! haha, been through much with you n im really encouraged to see how you have grown from last time to now. Thankyou for hearing my rants from time to time and providing me with great entertainment! haha jkjk. But i really enjoy all the times i spent with you, becoz you never fail to crack me up. I thank God for the things i've learnt through this relationship with you. Looking forward to more sharing times and growing tgt with you . x)

Kiat:
Heyy kiat! haha, I still remember how i was like in sec 1. omgosh. haha.
N the first time i actually talk to you normally. I truly appreciate all the short sharing of life n thoughts on our way home last time in dhs and the phonecalls i had with you.
You are really someone tt understands the way I feel n think at times and just tt understanding is really comforting n encouraging to me. Thanks for everyting n I'm looking forward to understanding you beta n running finish this race with you. Thank god for you bro. x)

SHINEE.

2010-07-21T20:21:00.003+08:00

Woah. Just saw Shinee's lucifer.
Woah not bad seriously. Love jonghyun still!
N minho looks very different !
N well, not used to taemin n key's hairstyle seriously.

But seriously, the song is not bad.
Although i sincerely tink the title is very redundant.
Take a pinch of salt when u hear the song!

Its 11.07pm.

2010-07-19T23:07:00.003+08:00

Had a great macs dinner with karencai.
N we stopped to see a cat poo for 5 mins becoz according to karen, it was something she wanted to observe for a long time alrdy. haha.
Enjoy talking n sharing with you coz you are someone tt understands the rationale behind my thoughts and actions. Loveyou so much! Thank god for you.

Definitely not the period where everyting is going extremely well.
But its true tt this period will not last.
But we will last through this period.
The things tt i stand strongly by, i cannot do nth about it.
A soldier's passion, someting tt i really desire.

I guess im still at the stage where im still unsure of certain things and values of mine.
Learning to claim my identity at this current stage.
To be who God wants me to be.

N thank god for helping me to find my donation card.
If not I have to pay $200 according to yeehua!

Becoz of your grace, I am who I am tdy.
To offer you more than a song. Becoz a song in itself is not what you have require.

This race i will run.

2010-07-18T01:45:00.001+08:00

The decisions i have made, the things i have to sacrifice.
I noe u will nv shortchange.
Let your will be done in my life.
Love you god.

God of restoration.

2010-07-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

Just heard bigbang on mtv. Woahh. lovethem.
Now is wondergirls. haha.
Rain's voice is really good i just realised haha!
WONDERGIRLS IN MALAYSIA. ahhhhh.
okay that was a sidenote haha.

Today's service was realy good.
But yea no point responding at the point and remain unchanged in the end.
I know that my god will restore me.

Changes, changes.
I guess i'm really tired of everyting.
Adapting to them, not easy.
But amidst all these, i noe that there is a reason behind all these.
N im truly waiting to understand.

The passion, the compassion, the convictions, the love that i once had.
Time to be restored.
Time to be focused again.
My promise, no matter how tough,
I will persevere on in this race.

N becoz of your promise O god, i have the strength to walk on.
I have the security in you that no matter wad happens,
you will always be there, never will you leave me, never will you forsake me.
Thankyou God.

Now is the time of restoration.

June Holidays.

2010-06-16T02:13:00.002+08:00

Hoho. Been long since i updated.
The holidays have been really fulfilling for me in a sense.
I'm not exactly busy. I just really like to fill my schedule beforehand.
Live life to the fullest yea?

On a side note, I saw wondergirls today. Omgosh rite!
Haha. It was really unplanned. I was supposed to go to the airport to study with KarenCai.
Then she msged me say got the railings. Then i tot maybe its some taiwanese star.
But .. It was the wonder girls. N the coolest thing is that there were only like 10 fans in all.
So we got to see them like super close n actually say hie to them.
They actually responded. But my camera had no memory..
Haha. I was shocked to the max.
I guess this is true. When u surrender this stronghold in ur life, God will bless.
Just like the Junsu incident.
How great is my god.

N Went to Kim's hse for dinner and catching up today.
Karen, Qiya and a few of Kim's lgmates were there.
The sharing session was really great.
hahaha KIM! ^^
Some really funny moments but most imptly, it really got me thinking.

There is a whole world out there. So many people I have yet to meet.
God's burden for the world, I want to carry.
To really stop dwelling in minute thoughts but godly tots.
This race is still long, And I am really excited for it.
To see where God will bring me to.
But I have to really start from where I am.

Question to think about:
What are some things that you are convicted about, things you will stand up for?

Second last day of exams.

2010-05-20T18:03:00.003+08:00

Woah. After 4 long days, exams is finally coming to an end.
I guess the ting which i really feel bad about is that I didnt actually put in my best effort.
Spirit of excellence. Something which I really need to have.
My promise to god is that I will really put in my best from now on, not only in my studies but in everything tat I do.
I am going to make full use of my holidays to relax, learn n meet the people that i love!

God is faithful.
I really thank god for the people that he has placed in my life.
People that understands all my "I duno....." and "huh...." and "I really dunooo."
For i noe how irritating i can be at times. haha.
But i really do appreciate you guys so much.

God is faithful and I can never deny this fact.

Trust

2010-05-18T11:32:00.002+08:00

When i should be studying.
Gonna do tat very soon.

I guess after all these while, i noe how unreliable my tots can be sometimes.
How sometimes certain feelings are just not justifiable.
But still, sometimes, i always get caught up by these tots.
N this often stops me from doing the things i really want to do.
Its tough n horrible always falling into this.
But what really matters is what I choose to do.

Becoz i noe that God is faithful.
Just like how he had changed my perspective on things before.
He will do it again.
Its tough to be struggling but ultimately, I hang on to his promise.
For he will make a way out.

I'm not alone.

2010-04-05T20:32:00.003+08:00

Tired both physically n mentally.
But i noe that i'm not alone.
Thank you god for your promises.
Thank god for ur 24/7 presence.

Run in such a way to win the prize.
Running for God and with God.
It's okay and it's normal to struggle.
What matters is do i want to get out of it.
N i noe my answer.

Jiayous!! I will not let you go.

FINALLY.

2010-04-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

hahaha. yea!! i finally finish changing my blogskin.
I realised that its very easy to do the template.
haha. I copied the idea from qiya hohoho.
Gonna sleep soon.
Thank God it's good friday tml..
N i wanna learn how to make a collage s in in computer.
hahah.
okayokay. shall blog tmr!

THursday

2010-03-04T20:46:00.002+08:00

okay, i completed my maths hw (sort of).
One thing i can confirm is I canot study at home!
Actually its possible if i can just sit n focus.
But apparently, i dun have that discipline.
So apparently not going sch to stay at home to do hw is a bad decision.

So many choices you can choose, so many stands that you can take.
But which one are u gonna choose?
I guess this is a very good experience for me.
Learning to stand by my stand.
Thousands of thoughts run through my head, but which one do i exactly wanna keep?
God, i really pray that u will help me out in this one.

N its been ages, i mean ages since i actually updated on kpop.
It actually feels okay.
To know what exactly is impt to me.

N im in choir.
N Im actually really looking forward to it tmr.
Oh and this is my *dream*.
I want to make choir like into a glee club.
Okay not exactly. But like i really want to resing songs in our own way.
Like to perform artists' songs in a unique way.
It seems very fun rite!
I wanna accomplish this someday haha.

n yes, its friday tml. woohoo!

2nd last day of the week.

2010-03-04T19:00:00.002+08:00

This is like my third day of MC from school.
Really wanted to study and catch up with my homework.
But once again, i failed.
Okay, its not the end of the day.
So i did not fail completely yet. hehe.

And i watched glee today n suddenly, i had this dream.
Okay it is a fun dream.
Im gonna do my hw now. .
Blog again soon!

Tiring week.

2010-02-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

Woah. JC's life is really different from secondary school life.
So much emphasis on independent studying.
But yes, i will start studying n revising tmr onwards!
And odac was a killer. But seriously, pt was awesome.
N im having muscleache now =D
Hahaha. in case u duno, i like the aching feeling.
Very shuang! hahaha.

Tdy's service was great. It really reminded me of the reason to why i love God.
why do i love god?
Simply becoz god first love me so much.
Adapting to SRJC from Dhs wasn't s easy s i tot it would be.
But adapting does take time.
N one ting tat reassured and comforted me so much throughout this period is this promise tat i held to.
Forever n ever, I will be here with you always.
God is always here with me and this reassurance really comforted me.

Had my sabbath day. Now its time to chiong in the coming week.
GOGO.

Hebrews 13:5.
"Never will i leave you, never will i forsake you."

To be filled.

2010-02-08T00:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIYA!!
Omgosh u r 17 yrs old alrdy!! so fast. Just wanna say that i love u so much
and our friendship has seriously grown so much just within this yr.
Even though we serving in different units now, I noe that our friendship will not end here.
Thank God for placing you in my life and for that really hilarious scene at downtown east.
Thank God for building this friendship between us.
Lets continue to grow in God so much more.
Thank God for you my little bob the builder cheena woman!! HAHA.
Iloveyou.

To be filled and to be emptied again.

TIRED.

2010-02-02T23:27:00.002+08:00

This is the fourth day of orientation and im already super tired.
Needa learn to manage my time ah.
Sch has got to end earlier!
Hahas, but i tink school will become even more hectic after orientation.
But okay. Its a time management issue and i have to learn how to handle it.

Had LG farewell today.
Really very thankful for all your affirmations and frankly, i have learnt so much from dhs.
I will probably blog more tmr or soon coz my brain is quite dead.
hahaha. yeaaaa. okay seeeyou!

Thoughts.

2010-01-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

To be realistic.
To understand truly what the real world is.
To make thoughts my convictions not just a passing thoughts.

But must I fully understand?
I want to, but i noe i can never even fully understand everyting.
Tap on god's wisdom.

12.20

2010-01-18T00:16:00.001+08:00

To carry your compassion.

wisdom.

2010-01-17T03:06:00.002+08:00

1 corinthians 13:11
"When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me."

This is so true.
A child argues his or her way out and persist on his/her stand.
But a woman of god seeks god, listens to god and obey god even if she do not understand or feel like it. I was a child, but now im growing into a woman of god.
Time to put my childish ways behind me.

1 corinthians 3:18-19
"Do not deceive yourselves. If any one of you thinks he is wise by the standards of this age, he should become a "fool" so that he may become wise. 19For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in God's sight."
I am very intrigued by people who reasons and thinks a lot.
But ultimately, all wisdom comes from God.

Finally, understood the reason to why god gave me these verses.
Amazed.
Conflicting thoughts can be difficult to expel.
But ultimately, i noe what is the truth and i will stand by the word.

FRIDAY.

2010-01-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

How do i start. hahas.
Erm. yea been a few days since i collected my results.
N ive alrdy submitted my selection of schools.
First choice srjc.
Nv in my life would i have tot tat i will go to srjc.
Its not that i looked down on the sch
but its just tat I have always kind of been "smart" throughout my life.
When i first saw the results, i was shocked.
But not really sad.
More of excited because i noe that many changes n struggles are awaiting me.
I definitely have my worries but i noe that god will not give me what i canot bear.
Its really a big change and in fact im looking forward to this change.
Of course i had my sad moment when the fact that i did badly for o's sink into me.
But more like, i noe that God has his plans for me and I trust that one day, i will see the bigger picture to y i m in srjc.
Really looking forward to the day wheni looked back and realise that hey, i finally understand y god put me in srjc. Yeap.
Struggles and problems leads to growth.
Tats y im awaiting for the start of sch anxiously.
I will struggle, no doubt.
But i will struggle powerfully with God.

2 more days to results.

2010-01-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

Ahhh. i realised its been so long since i last had my karaoke session on com.
Ever since i liked kpop. hahas.
But still, i really think that kpop is so so so much better than cpop (eeeew).
Korean stars can sing and dance so much better!
Even though many of them has been through plastic surgery, they really have talents.
Example, dongbang! they seriously can sing so well.
Fangirls have substance too . hahahs.

But i realised that my craze for kpop has decreased so much.
In a sense, which is definitely a good thing.
Results coming out on monday.
I cant deny that im scared definitely.
But i tink its a natural thing to be scared becoz i really did not put in my all for o level.
But i know that God is there for me and that he has his perfect plan for me.
Thank god for his amazing grace.
It really does not matter where i go in my opinion as long as i m serving god.
So yea. Scared but secured.
Even though fear have the tendency to overcome me at times, but i m reminded that god definitely will open a door for me.

SHINee is coming to singapore!
I wanna see my jonghyun ahh.
wahahahhas.

Farewell.

2010-01-06T00:26:00.003+08:00

I tink i prefer to blog when there are no distractions like when the tv is not on.
But okay, i have to coz my mum is on the bed. hahas.

Today worship session was really good because God was with us.
God really worked in us.
I was hit with this verse in qt sometime ago and god prompted me to share for worship.
But i didnt know how to link so i didnt share the verse in the end.
Then when everyone started sharing what god gave them,
I was amazed. Because i realised that yea, God did really gave me that msg.
N he spoke to the rest of my caregroup members about it too.

The thing that was revealed to us is that 2010 is going to be a year of changes.
But yea, amidst all the changes, god will never change.
God is the same god, yesterday, today and days to come.
Rejoice in our sufferings for we know that moulding comes through sufferings.
2010 is gonna be a year of changes, are we ready?
Maybe not, but we know that with god, everyting is going to be fine.

2010

2010-01-03T02:40:00.003+08:00

2010 is gonna be a year of changes.
I am very excited for this year.
My new year resolution: To desire for more of God.
If i cant let god minister to me, how can God use me to minister to others.
I think that ultimately it all boils down to our relationship with god.
Serving God is definitely important but we cannot forget what is the most important thing.

Recently, God reminded me of what he had told me during Heroes' camp.
I was kind of struggling with faith at that moment and God spoke to me.
He told me that I can be that person that is so faith-filled that i can help to build other ppl's faith up.
in the year 2009, i faced many doubts but God pulled me through and showed me how real he is.
I finally understand why these things happened to me.
What i am convinced, God will deliver his promises to us.

Results coming out in ard 1 week plus .
I am afraid but yet secure.
Excited for the new year and for all that is about to come!

Its a new year.

2010-01-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

Beginning of a new year. So many things i have thought through n wanted to share.
But i realised that i have forgotten.
I will set my new year's resolutions with god later.
Suppose to be writing cards but i have not started yet!
But i thank god for his presence in my life.
Because of you, i look forward to each new year, to each new day in fact.
I think i read or heard this somewhere before.
Every day that you are alive god has a purpose for it.
Thank god for every breath that i take and let every moment that im alive be pleasing to you.

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!
hahahas, thank god for christmas day.
Because of this day, there are changed lives today.
Hope tat everyone had a blessed day today!

My resolution to God is to not be lazy anymore.
Sloth, my deadliest habit.
But i really want to do it for God.
Friends, bear with the times when i fail okay but i will perservere!

2010 is approaching very soon.
New challenges, new lessons awaiting in the new year.
I am so excited for nxt yr!
Although 4A is gonna go their seperate ways, i know that some of us will still stay in contact.
I really love everyone single one of u guys.
Thankyou for a enjoyable 2 years with you guys.

Work in progress.

2009-12-11T19:27:00.004+08:00

The year is coming to an end!
and it is approaching the nxt year.
This year ended really quick and so many things have changed.
Time really passes by really quick.
2010. Where will i be? What challenges are there up ahead?

I still remembered the yr before i entered secondary 3,
I was really insecure.
I was planning with my fren who should i befriend since all my good frens went into vj or other classes.
I used to be a super clingy person, a very insecure person.
A person that is very afraid of being left out.
But now, i have changed and am still changing.
I thank god for changing me.
I thank god for who i am today and who i will be in the future.
I thank god for teaching me so many things.
Becoz i noe that without you god, i will not be who i am today.

There is still so much more i have not learn,
so much more that i have to change.
But i am grateful for who i am today.
I am a work in progress.
I do not know what is installed in the future for me,
but I noe that my future is secured in your hands.
Thank you god.

Oh! i think i saw a shooting star yesterday.

Realisation.

2009-11-27T03:09:00.002+08:00

Convictions.
Do u still remember those convictions u used to hav in the past?
I sure hav forgotten mine recently.
I think that sometimes we tend to let our thoughts affect our convictions.
But the truth is our mind runs wild but our heart doesnt.
Follow your heart not your mind.

Today was a ahh day.
So many things which i noe i have to change.
I think that students are so priviledged.
We get two months of holidays to rest while the adults dont.
So yea. Plan for your holidays!

Thank you god for a great caregroup today.
& I thank you god for your grace even when i fail you lord.

long time nv post.

2009-11-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

erm. o lvl is over!
finally i can really take a break.
although i did not exactly chiong for O's.
My holidays must be fully maximised.
I wanna watch movies, go teoheng, go chill at "coffeeshops" and shopping!
But most importantly, i really wanna take this holiday to really get to know more ppl even deeper.
Yvonne! i will really miss you.
We MUST keep in contact ok.

Its really true tat everyting is a choice.
N i got to take a stand.

day 3

2009-10-28T19:44:00.000+08:00

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.-Hebrews 11:6

2 weeks left.

2009-10-11T02:39:00.002+08:00

2 weeks left for o lvl.
Gonna really strive.
Gotta do it for god.
Lord, i wanna make u proud.
With the life u have given me, i wanna worship you.

Praise god for his love endures forever.

23 sep 09

2009-09-23T18:44:00.004+08:00

Yes! i finally put my playlist. but the song doesnt shuffle.
Everyone go hear butterfly by jiyong. super nice.
although they say got plagarism.

Just now after teoheng, on the way back home,
I was on the bus.
N i really feel so thankful.
Becoz i realised i no longer experience tat empty feeling anymore.
If im the old me, after enjoying myself with my frens,
n suddenly im all alone. I would probably have the whole life is meaningless again.
Last time i used to feel is tat all to life?
Just having fun with frens, studying n having more fun with frens.
I felt everyting was pointless.
But then when god came in the picture things change.
I suddenly feel so blessed tat i have god in my life.

The things u do need not be interesting but it should be meaningful.
Becoz interest can fade off but meaning is usually the one which holds us on.
Something like tat. Okay, i noe it sounds weird but i believe someone gets it.

Gonna study now.
Im doing it for god.
But first i must really do my 100%.
Okay. let this be the first time i really put in all my effort.
ok! seeeyou soon.

Check out my playlist okay!

Mondays.

2009-09-21T19:33:00.003+08:00

Ahh today was a studying day.
hahaha. i really always slack.
But at least today's studying at home was productive.

I really want to just sit at the coffeeshop n drink coffee at korea
or the usa or australia during probably winter.
Wow. wouldnt tat be relaxing.

TIRED.

2009-09-15T17:18:00.002+08:00

Quit living as if the purpose of life is to arrive safely at death. Set God-sized goals. Pursue God-ordained passions. Go after a dream that is destined to fail without divine intervention. Keep asking questions. Keep making mistakes. Keep seeking God. Stop pointing out problems and become part of the solution. Stop repeating the past and start creating the future. Stop playing it safe and start taking risks. Expand your horizons. Accumulate experiences. Enjoy the journey. Find every excuse you can to celebrate everything you can. Live like today is the first day and last day of your life. Don’t let what’s wrong with you keep you from worshiping what’s right with God. Burn sinful bridges. Blaze new trails. Criticize by creating. Worry less about what people think and more about what God thinks. Don’t try to be who you’re not. Be yourself. Laugh at yourself. Quit holding out. Quit holding back. Quit running away. Chase the lion.

Got tis from karen's blog. n its seriously inspiring.
Got to read it again later coz my brain isnt functioning very right now.
Okay, im going to study now. okay in 5 mins.
hahahas. be back in 3 hours plus time!

ARGH.

2009-09-12T02:45:00.003+08:00

hahhahas.
I just realised that these few days are gonna be so busy.
Must finish studying history which i haven really started yet.
But somehow someway, i noe i can get through it with god.
Although its true that god never works without man.
100% man then 100% god.
So i should really give my 100% for these few days.

I can do it somehow with god.
Holding on and nv letting go .

Ohoh. really thank god for that meal i had with qiya's family.
Super nice.
Thank god for such a great reward.

Yes, i will.

2009-09-11T23:38:00.002+08:00

Been studying at the airport these few days.
Not extremely productive.
But at least i did!
Yeap.
I wanna prove that sloth is not a disease.
But sloth is a habit that can be overcome.

2009-08-26T21:52:00.002+08:00

Duno how, duno what .
So i pray, god break me down.
I entrust my everything to you.
For i noe u noe what i need.
God, help me pray for myself.
Bring me back to you lord.
yes, bring me back to you.

Time to study

2009-08-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

I should really be studying.
Time is so pressing. ARGH.

Yea, i should fix my eyes on the one thing tat is true.
I can do it with god.

Life.

2009-07-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

The devil will do its best to destroy you;
if not destroy you, deceive you;
if not deceive you, distract you.

I think this is so true.
But stay focused on god.
Stay focus on the one thing tat is true.
Stay focus on wad u have faith in.

I feel so blessed and secured in his love.
N lord, i love you so much .
Thanks for blessing with the love from these ppl,
for i know that this love comes from you.
Oh god, thank you so much.
Where would i be without you?

Love u k,q,r.
love love love.
dont u just love love.

Realisation.

2009-07-05T18:53:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was rewarding.
Went to karen's hse to stay coz my keys is with her.
We had a great talk which make me realise so much.

God will use you s long s u r willing to be used and it is according to his will.
Just experienced it tis morning.
& God, i want to be use by you.

YO.

2009-06-26T16:02:00.002+08:00

went to fetch FT island yesterday!
We arrived like 45 mins before their flight reached but we got a super good spot.
God's grace.
God was really cute yesterday.
I noe its a little retarded to say tis
but i was in a bad mood when i left my house yesterday.
&My psp had low batt n when i got onto the bus,
This girl sitting beside me was playing sorry sorry super loudly.
It really made me happier.
hhaha. okay.
IM NOT TAT SUPERFICIAL.

yeaaaaaaaaaa.
I got to study. . . . . . .. . . . . .
God, give me motivation!

Woohoooo.

2009-06-23T10:21:00.002+08:00

I really feel that i wasted tis 2 days of my life.
I just sat around and sleep and sleep and sleep.
Dun get me wrong, i love sleeeeeeping.
But like, u always wake up feeling so unaccomplished.

Hahaha. I just remembered and wanted to post about tis dream i had yesterday.
I dreamt tat i was going to die (Dun bother thinking y i was going to die coz its super weird)
But then, knowing i was gonna die, i kept saying no i cant die. Im not prepared to meet god yet.
I noe tat im not prepared for judging yet.
It really struck me.
I think if i were to go now, i will be probably to ashamed to meet god.

& Suddenly, i just feel so thankful to be alive today.
Every day is a blessing from god.
& I wanna make sure that i make a point to cherish every single day.

Yea. i must still desire to grow even when everyting in my life is going smoothly.
yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

COOL YO.

2009-05-29T20:30:00.002+08:00

hahhas.
Tmr is ess !
I believe its gonna be an impactful and cool one.
I tink i will not use tis skin for long coz the font very small . hahas.
Ahhh! FT Island coming to sg!!
wondergirls pls dun come becoz i no money to buy tickets now!

Got to be more intentional in growing.
Got to be more intentional in things i wanna achieve.
June is the period where i study the most and grow the most.

& Check out SHINee's new album.
Not bad. Love the song please don't go.
Jonghyun and Onew vocals are amazing.

May tmr be a god-blessed day.

leave it to you.

2009-05-22T22:07:00.002+08:00

My day is in your hands, I will just act according to your plan.
and in tis moment, all i choose to do is to leave it all to you.

Kpop update!

2009-05-08T22:18:00.002+08:00

hahaha. i did like nothing productive ever since sch ended.
I went to eat subway with my cousin coz its really so worth it now.
hahhaas. then we went to walk ard
and went to artbox in tm which is a korean shop.
hahahas, but the things quite ex.
But i bought two erasers and a file coz its made in korea.
hahahhas.

Woohoo, i updated so much on kpop.
Ahh, allkpop having a wondergirls fan appreciation contest.
If u win, u get the gifts that the girls picked out specially for u!!
I want yoobin's gift.
But i doubt i will win. hahahs.
ARGH.

Ahhh, dongbang got tis super nice song tat is releasing on the 1st of july.
Its called Stand by you.
Ahhh, stand by me by shinee n ss501.
Then its stand by you by dongbang.
But the song is super nice.
Just like doushite which is the song tat made me fall in love with them.

Wondergirls mini album should be coming out soon!
AHHH, i hope i really get to go korea at the end of tis yr.
GO away swine flu!

Dear god, i promise i will do my qt tmr.
I love you. xD

I love kpop but god is always my first priority.
Yup. XD
OKayOKAY.
My auntie's wedding is two days away.
hohohoho.
OKAY. seeeeeyouuuuuuuu.

SUNDAY.

2009-05-03T13:11:00.004+08:00

Hohohoh, was so lazy yesterday.

& im still super lazy now.

hahas, okay. being lazy is like my worst habit la.

ahhh, I wanted to blog yesterday but i was lazy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SUNMI!!!

Ahh, ur officially 17.

I hope u had a great birthday!

Hwaiting!

N i hope the swine flu will not affect u n the rest!!!

saranghaeyo!

Ahh, i really hope that my father can bring all of us to korea

at the end of this year.

Although the first case of swine flu has been confirmed in korea.

But its okay!

I pray that this swine flu will not be so serious and that a cure will soon

be found for it.

I SHOULD STUDY LATER.

the keyword is later. hahahas.

Okay, im gonna go dl songs and see my wondergirls+dongbang+bigbang.

seeyou seeyou~

Im back . . .

2009-04-26T22:51:00.002+08:00

After days, i finally decided to post stuff up .
hahas.
okay, i really dun have much thing to say.
well, so many things have happened which makes me realised
the importance of growing.
Yea, i hate saying n not doing it just because of sloth.
Sloth is deadly to spiritual growth.
But yea, Never forget and always remember God, god's grace, god's love.
Everyting. . . . for he is the source of everyting.
Its hard to overcome sloth. But i will do it. I wanted to type try but yea,
trying means tat i may not do it! hahas. yea.

Ahh, life has been rather okay.
Not entirely smooth-sailing but i guess i really want problems.
yea. okay.

Im supposed to start studying at 11pm.
& I will. yea, for you my lord!
But now, i wanna download songs.
hahahhaas.
love love love.
I wanna watch korean dramas.
Boys over flowers, goong. okay actually tats about it.
hahaahas, i love my yoon eun hye. pretty pretty.

YUP. oh, im watching tis korean drama call rosemary.
But im like on n off.
hahas, dun worry. God will forever n always be my first priority!!
yea. okay, off to dl songs.
Combined cg tis week!

Got to learn to be firm and stand for my own grounds.
But at the same time, i need to love and shine for god.

guilty

2009-04-08T22:21:00.003+08:00

ahhh.
Ive been super super lazy recently.
& Im sorry.
Been kpoping recently again....

Ahh. god just let me play tis week okay..
Im sorrry . . . . . .

I promised u tat i will get my priorities right.
xD i love you father.

Bigbang looks so cute when they just debuted.
gosh. they look super different now.
I finally realised y i love seunghyun so much tat time.
hahas.
I m in love with wonderbang.
Cant wait for their collaboration again.

Dream concert 2009!!
dongbang, wondergirls, bigbang and many others performing.
ahhhh. I really wanna go . . . . . .
but O's.

Promise to get my priorities right. yeap.

thursday . . .

2009-04-02T21:31:00.002+08:00

woohoo.
hahas, on the way back home,
i was thinking of doing so many things when i reached home.
Pack bag, study chem, write letter for shouyi, rochelle and qiya .
but i lazy. . . .

so the only solution is to wake up earlier to write.
which means i should be sleeping soon.
hahahas.

But yea, I really wanted to blog about today's cg.
Feeling god's presence.
Attitude is really important.
Quieten down ur heart, be in a conducive atmosphere.
& u must know in ur head n heart that no matter what,
god is hearing every single word u r saying.
U may not feel his presence but he is there.
Wait for him.
No matter how long it takes,
I will perservere.

I look forward to tat time god.
God, i pray for my father and for all 4A students to do well for their spa tmr.
Yup.
& I love my caregroup.
Faith.

fresh day!

2009-04-01T06:33:00.004+08:00

hahahas,
Yesterday we went to watch hotel for dogs!
Really wanna watch the L one but im not 16 yet
and they check ic at vivo.
ARGH.

But oh well,
hotel for dogs was rather nice.
Like those after u watch u will feel wen xin kind of show.
Hahahahas.
Emma roberts is so pretty.

Had a rather bad start yesterday.
But i got to persevere.
...... . . .. . . . . . .. . . .. . .
Theres cca today.
HORRIBLE LA.
I have so many tests then still got cca.
Hello, my middle name is actually slacker u noe.
HAHAHAS.

okayokay.
Got history essay to write today.
Although i didnt study,
I pray that god will show his grace once again .
hehehe.

& Im going malaysia tis sat!!!!

fresh day!

2009-04-01T06:33:00.001+08:00

Finally!

2009-03-27T23:26:00.002+08:00

Oh yea, its friday!!!
Rejoice.
Stressful week man.
although today there is no test at all!
God's grace once again.

Ahhh, im super tired.
N im damn broke.
Gonna wake up early to go do cards tmr.
-_______________-
TIRED TIRED TIRED.

God, im sorry.
I will do my quiet time tmr.
& I will study tmr!

I'm so confused.
Like there is really so many choices.
IM STUCK.
I shall ask god tmr.

&YEs, service day .
woohoo.
my boys over flowers.
Im so sorry for missing so many episodes.
but im stressed.

I got four tests nxt week.
can bang head on wall.
hahahas.

OKAY. OKAY.i got to go sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
byebyebyebye.

go dongbang, go wondergirls !

SLEEPY.

2009-03-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

I'm sleepy but i wanna use com.
I haven send xiangyu the photos yet. GONNA die.
hahhahhas.
Screwed maths test coz nv practise.
But I actually managed to remember all the formulaes.
God's grace.

N because of our great god hu loves me so much,
I dun tink theres bio test to study.
HENG.
hahahas, but i haven started on history yet.
becoz im waking up at 4 (my best time to study).
Means i shld be sleeping now, but i just wanna use com.

TIRED.
Today was cg day.
Quite alrite.
But i was like -____- coz im very tired.
I wanted to ask y i was placed in tis cg.
But well, i will noe someday hahas.

Awkardness, someting hard to overcome.
God placed me in ushering for exactly the same reason.
I really think mark 11:22-25 is so powerful to me.
U noe !!
I was so pekcek today coz i took 28 from kiatshing house
n it took super long to reach my 15 busstop.
hahas. then i reached the 15 busstop i was like
god, please make the bus 15 come the moment i alight from 28.
But he did not answer me.
Then when i got super impatient,
I was like God, I pray that the bus 15 will be behind the bus that is approaching.
Then i was like thinking to myself, "ya rite, always nv ans my prayer one."
Then i was like mark 11:22-24, believe tat u have alrdy received it n it will be done.
N THEN i saw a bus behind that bus which was 15.
Hhahahhas.
I was WOAH .
yea. hahahas.

Many words for a bus testimony. hahahas
But its really cool.
okay, im going to zzzz now.
SEEEYOU' YALL.

this cg will grow.
Lord, rain the harvest on us.

Stressful week.

2009-03-25T21:05:00.002+08:00

Woahhh. Long time since i hear the stand by me by ss501.
Hahas. These coming two days is gonna be stressful.
But im glad its gonna be over soon.
Bio spa & math test tmr.
So im gonna wake up at 2.30 later.
Not sure whether got enough time.
Well, should hav!

God, I pray tat tmr studying session will be like today.
Short but efficient.
Seriously, i woke up at 4 to study bio.
& I actually absorbed the little bit i studied.

Mark 11:22-25.

I really miss going crazy over korean popstars.
I dun really hav the mood to go youtubing anymore
coz like waste a lot of time.
Still remembered when I just knew bout dongbang from karen
I went nuts.
&Bigbang too. oh well, bigbang was like a momentarily ting for me.
hahas. But i love top still.

I love love wondergirls so so much.
Ahh. cant wait for their concert dvd to come out.
Ahh. Ahh. Ahh.
I hope to really go malaysia nxt week!
& Yes, i cant wait for the holidays & 2010 to come.
okayokayokay.
SEEYOU. SEEYOU. SEEYOU.

HELO.

2009-03-24T22:21:00.002+08:00

hahhahas, today was an alrite day.
Learnt so much recently.
But i yearn for that personal touch . yup.
Will keep praying for it.

I saw tifen today!
Which was like woah.
Coz i jus had tis feeling tat i will meet her.
Like when i saw her i was like, WAH, thank you god.
Like i alrdy knew i would see her!
hahahhas.
okay.

hahhas, i really wanna buy that nice smelling ting u noe.
NO MONEY.
KOREA HERE I COME. well, at least singapore's korea here i come.
& I'm seriously in love with full house ost.
hahas, & I so wanna watch that L movie so badly.

I miss those days.
But i guess its meant to be like dat for now.
No one noes the future well god knows hahas.
okay, CHERYL IS GOING TO WAKE UP AT 2.15am to study.
God, hold me accountable.
GOODNIGHT.

"Why are u afraid? Do you still have no faith?"
Faith is so so important.

OST.

2009-03-22T20:49:00.002+08:00

The full house ost doesnt sound like rain ler!
But im addicted to the ost.
& I missed boys over flowers today!
Man. Tat means I have to get the disc.
Probably during the holidays.

Long time since i updated on wg .
But today is not the day.
& Starting from tmr, i really got to study.
Lots of tests coming up.

Let me find it!
im watching i m legend now!

Unexpected.

2009-03-15T15:11:00.003+08:00

Wad r u gonna do when ppl fail you.
Ppl failing you need not be in a major way but yea.
It hurts and it sucks.
But God, I know there is a lesson going to be learn here.
& I hope i will get it.

The little things really do matter.
At times, even small things you do can tell so much.
Reflect, reflect, reflect.
Wad hav i done wrong?
Its really contradicting but wad does it mean by accepting?
Accepting someone is accepting their flaws and not looking at it?
Or...?

Many many questions.
& When ppl fail you wad do u do?
Or do u not do anyting.
God, pls help me.
The world is really complicated & humans are more complicated.
It is tiring. but we gotta hang on.
For god love us so much even though we broke his heart so many times.
Questions questions questions.

hahahas.

2009-03-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

Karen cai .
I believe its possible!
hahhas, yea.
okay, pardon my weirdness coz i feel like sleeping man.
hahhahas.

But yea, I realised theres really so much we can learn from everyone.
I just suddenly think tat we should focus more on ppl's good points rather than their weaknesses.
But yea, we mus realise both their negative n positive points.
Learn from them, help urself grow and then help them grow.
Theres always a reason to why all these ppl are ard u.
But yea, theres a fine line between evaluating and judging.
& yea, god, im still learning.

Needa do quiet time nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
bye!

CHANGE BLOGSKIN.

2009-03-13T21:46:00.003+08:00

finally, after like 2 hours i finally changed my blogskin.
hahahs, okay.
but i want the post part to be bigger.
HELP ME.
hahhas.

Tomrrow im gonna usher. . . .
Ahh, god. i pray tat u will help me overcome the awkardness.
got to break through my comfort zone.
& I need to be less lazy.
I always wanna sleep.

Thursday was fun.
caregroup at ecp!
hahahas.
Yea, the caregroup is gonna split into two.
But still, we are one big family.
Its actually a good thing tat we are splitting.
But yea, its a bit sad.
But still, we are gonna grow.
not only in numbers but in faith too.

God, I pray tat u will bless us
and help us grow in numbers and in faith too.
I pray tat god, u will guide tzelin and help her lead
the caregroup to greater heights.

yea, the harvest is near but are we ready?
I may not feel tat im ready god,
but god, im not afraid for I know you are with me.

God, I pray that tmr ess will be a fruitful and impactful one.
be with me!
TMR WE GONNA HEAR DEJAVU.

& the song stand by me by SS501 is really not bad!
okayokay. oh, i watched plenty of tv in the morning today.
OKAY, excited for tmr . goodnight!!

12 march 2009.

2009-03-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

heeeeeeyyy .
Today was a rather great day.
Gena injured her foot so we went to visit her.
Had shepherding .
She really taught me a lot and I believe god really speaks to me through her.
She encouraged me to journal.
So here i am.

I was really tired but I really wanna blog.

Doubts.
Recently, I have been filled with doubts.
I realised tat having faith in god, believing in god, does not mean tat u will have no doubts at all.
I realised that it is through doubts tat we grow.
Throughout our whole spiritual walk, doubts will always be there.
But we must make the effort to confront these doubts with God.

I wanted to write something else down.
But I'm afraid. Yea, I just feel that some things shouldnt be written in public .
yea. so yup. I'm gonna get a journal!!
ahhahas.
But no matter wad,
I wanna thank everyone tat has tried to help me in these few days .
Yea, I really appreciate it.
YUP. time to ZZZZ.
GOODNIGHT.

its a monday.

2009-03-09T18:53:00.003+08:00

Long time since i on the computer.
& My com load so slow tat i cant see wondergirls pic.

Well, im watching music bank now.
N yea im gonna watch boys over flowers later!
Tifen says hyunjoong is gonna change to a nicer hairstyle soon.

Ahh,
I really hope my prayer come true.
Really dun hav much to say
although i tot i had a lot to say.
Maybe its just not the time yea.

YO.

2009-02-25T19:48:00.003+08:00

HAHAs Rochelle! yes, I put all the songs I love!
I shall update it when Im free.

Hahahas, i still duno whose voice i love in dongbang.
Its tough to choose one!

Woohoo. dongbang dongbang dongbang.
Maybe I will change to a wondergirls skin soon.
If i have time.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

SICk.

2009-02-25T19:35:00.002+08:00

woah. I really felt like dying yesterday in class.
Sneeze until like mad.
I look dead .

&I got a fever today.
Which entitled me to 2 days mc.
hahahhas.
But yea, my head is really heavy.
But I really wanna do my homework n study.
I shall really force myself to do later.

Yea, got to buck up in my studies.
& really make use of today n tmr .
Oh, I watched boy over flowers yesterday on KBSworld.
GOSH, the guys look super super cute.
But i didnt get to see hyunjoong.

&The korean show on channel u at 7 is nt bad too.
Ahhh. Actually I dun really wan time to pass tat fast too.
But yea, really wan O level to faster come n go.

Ahhhhh, I love life and I love my family & my cg and my friends.
hahhahahs. REALLY.
oh i love dongbang n wondergirls.
But most importantly, i love god . xD
LOVE .
weeeeee.

But i really jus wanna watch a movie n unwind for a day.
long time since i watched a movie.
okay! byebyebye (& the song don't say goodbye just played.)
HAHAHAS. Anio!

Finally its Friday!

2009-02-20T19:08:00.002+08:00

Woohooo..
I finally get to use com after so many days.
Monday to Wednesday is really torturing.
Thursday is alright becoz there is caregroup!

Hmm. what to say.
This week has been really great.
Lots of ups and downs.
& History was a killer test.

But yea, God really taught me wad true joy was on last saturday.
It was really a great service.
Thank you Yixi !
& I'm really happy to be serving god with you.
&If any time u need to talk, im always here!

Yea, I realised im really not a good writer.
Which is horrible.
I always tot i can write very well.
FINE. nvm.
God has blessed me with many other talents.
ahhahs. jkjk.

Oh! & I seriously wanna see dongbang live performance.
Seriously. I will most definitely faint but wake up again becoz I dun wanna miss their performance.
& But first I must learn korean or jap.
So I can converse with my husbands.
They r truely amazing.

love love love wondergirls toooooooo.
WEEE. BYEBYEBYE.
saranghaeyo .

Yixi, I would gladly sing u a song. hahahhas.

Ohya, junsu's name was put on there by the person hu made the skin.
If i make the skin, i will put yoochun's name first hahas.

LOOKING FORWARD TO MARCH HOLIDAYS.
& My favourtie colour is red.
& Jaejoong i love you.

hahhahahas. its cca day again.

2009-02-11T06:15:00.003+08:00

Y do we have cca on wednesday?
& it ends at 6.30pm.
MIND-BLOWING.

hahahahas.
even though it may seems really hard at times,
we know that we are struggling powerfully.
& yes, ive been lazy, my lord.

hahahhas,
but hey! at least i woke up 3.30 today .
& finish at least two compos (sort of).
& theres chem test today.

hahhas, yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Lamentations 3:31
"For men are not cast off
by the Lord forever.
Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
so great is his unfailing love.
For he does not willingly bring affliction
or grief to the children of men."

& Bolero is not very very very nice.
but I totally love the part where yoochun hits the high note.
wad can i say,
MIND-BLOWING.
hahahhas. -_-
okay, im like putting songs on my blog for myself to hear -___-
okay. byebyebyebyebye.

& valentine's day is coming.
So all u couples out there,
WADEVER.
HAHAHAS.

Updates!

2009-02-09T19:12:00.002+08:00

woohoo, i finally updated on wondergirls.
Instead of having their concert on 14th feb,
they are postponing it to 28th march as they want to be fully-prepared
before holding a concert in their motherland!
Our girls are so professional.

Okay, & the girls were invited to a grammy-nominations exhibition by
william in the black eye peas.
Although through their interview, i can see that their english still need improvements,
but they have really improved a lot.

Ahhh, i must really go L.A one day.
The wondergirls say that there are a lot of korean shops there!
hahas, i really hope the wondergirls will have a concert in singapore!
please!!!

hahahas, YES, qiya, i noe my blogskin is cool.
becoz its all my husbands.
hahahas.
& rochelle, remember love is the key.

I have to start doing my hw!

2009-02-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

HEY BLOG.
after ard more than a week, i can finally blog again.
Isnt my blogskin cool?!
helo husbands.
hahas.

Woah, this week was hectic.
Im supposed to be very busy
but coz i haven been doing hw, so im not very busy.
hahas.
But I will start doing my hw today!

Yesterday was great.
God really works amazingly in my life.
After 3 yrs plus, he finally made me realised hu my true frens are.
He made me struggle through so many things
& i realised theres a reason for everyting that happened in my life.
Im really so thankful to God.
Our friendship strengthened so much because of you lord.
Serving God with u guys is really something I have never expected.

Though all of us are undergoing situations in our life,
I just want to let u guys noe that when u wanna fall back, im here to catch you.
Don't worry, for god is with us no matter wad.
I love you guys so much really.
Karen, Qiya n rochelle i love you darlings.
hahhas, okay its really a bit rou ma.
hahas. oh, n i will never say all these in the past!

& happy birthday qiya!
U are offically 16!
can watch nc16 shows now.
hahas. okay seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyaaaaaaa.

Oh, & long time since i updated on wg n dongbang.
but its okay, u noe i love you guys.
bye dongbang, bye wondergirls!